A Week Full Of Stories

Used up about 10 minutes to rethink back what I did in a week. Umm... Didn't really help much. Heheh. Well, I'll just break the news which everyone already knows, I guess, except my blog didn't state it so... Yea. I'm going to Taiwan for 7 Days 6 Nights starting this Saturday. It's a morning flight at 9.30am or something. Gotta leave house at around 5am because it's an international flight so we'll have to reach KLIA 2 hours before departure. Sleep? Ain't nobody got time fo' dat! Hahahah, got around 4 hours to sleep in the plane ma. :)

Everyone's been asking for souvenirs. Hmm... I will, but there's this person that asked for a special one hahaha. Apalah lu. Gotta ask my parents for some cash when I'm there to buy the stuffs. Friend, ah friend. 

Well, back to what happened after my last blog post. Last Wednesday I sat with CBS only in Sejarah because Ian had his piano exam that day (Hope you passed! :D). The class was in room 12 because Room 9 was too small. It's able to fit all of us but it's too hot so we had to change classrooms. Both of us sat at the last row at the right side of the class, behind Soon Kee and Xin Ling. CBS wanted to take a picture of them because they looked intimate hahahah! So, ta-da:

Heheheh. Soon Kee know hahaha and he asked me to send it to him. Aww... They always look so sweet together, but not in Twitter though. In Twitter macam very sad nia. Haiyo, apala lu orang kan aiyoyo. 

I was actually gonna get food from Chee Keat but I thought I was late, mana tau he lagi late hahaha. 没福享受。I bet it tasted good. (Y)

Mr. Vela arrived so late omg. Almost an hour. He said there were 3 accidents in the highway that resulted in his late entry. He lives in Kajang-or-Rawang-I-forgot-which so he's excused la. His teaching is great so as long as he teaches, I'm good! :)

He said he's gonna compensate by starting class at 2pm next class, which was today but I skipped. I had to okay, DON'T POINT FINGERS FIRST! I had 2 sessions of Physics class today: 11.15am to 1pm and the normal class, 2.15pm to 4pm. I'm gonna go this Friday's Sejarah class lo because I didn't go today. See! I am a good student kay. Hmph! Ian skipped today so he will accompany me this Friday heehe. Thanks, man!

Okay, finish with that, Thursday next! Last Thursday was the first day that Catching Fire is out! I told you d in my last post that I'm going to watch it with my friends if my mum approves right? She did allow me so I went to watch it! GAWD IT'S TERRIFIC! So much more better than The Hunger Games. Seriously. Saffira booked the tickets online for us so we were able to be a few of the first ones to see the movie. Yay, Saffira! :D 

Around 7 of us went to watch the movie. Pictures!

God bless for the creation of convex lenses! :D

Heidi, Alya and me!

Cam-whorers, unite!

Finally, normal for once? :D

I shared a popcorn combo with Heidi and we managed to finish it hahahha. Then the plan was supposed to be continuing my Add Maths tuition after the show but... I played truant! Well, not exactly la because I did get the green light from my mum. God bless you mum. I continued to stay there and watch Carrie with Ian. He looked older than me ma, I guess, so he managed to buy the tickets la hahah. You know what, Chloe Moretz is so damn hot!

So hot, I almost went homo.

Heheh, Thursday activities done, Friday! Actually Friday nothing much la. Didn't go out also hehehe. I went to Mr. Brian's class then suddenly, "...yea, that's Ms. Tay's number," and then "Okay those of you that are taking Maths with Ms. Tay, the class is canceled later. Tell your parents to come pick you up earlier,". I was like, WHAT! Again arh deyh? So, because I promised Ian that I'd eat dinner with him, and I miss eating dinner with him liao hahah, I went to GK because I had nowhere to go. Look at my check-in and the likes:

The amount of likes are many times better than usual, man. Using period blood in the caption is effective to gain likes? Hahahaha. The most strange observation is that, all the like-rs are actually guys. YES. ALL. I guess dudes want to experience what it feels like to excrete blood from a vagina is it? XD

It was straight after Mr. Brian's class so I guess I checked in a few minutes after 1600 hours? I was enjoying my "period blood" Strawberry Ice I ordered when suddenly I saw a guy enter GK with a goofy grin and styled-up hair hahahah. Ian came and find me before his class to pass me this:

Yea! He gave me macaroons! Of course I tore off the packaging but the plastic contained these two blue and red macaroons heheh! It was the first time I tasted a macaroon and damn, was it sweet! Thank you goofy-grin-with-styled-up-hair Ian. :3

Then we chat for a while before he left for his tuition in A1. I was alone again in GK but with 2 extra macaroons to accompany me heheh. I took out the new book I bought the day before in Jusco Bukit Raja, "FML". I do not recommend you guys to buy the book because it sucked. Real bad ugh gawd waste money. I tweet a little here and there and left for Kopitiam Story at around 6.15pm. I sat there alone for a while, waiting for Mr. Phang. All the while I was just hoping the mak cik there won't be angry for sitting there without ordering anything for so long. Anxiety problem, okay? Don't judge.

He finally came at I-dont't-know-what-time and ordered a plate for 2 of 扣肉米粉。Damn, was it mouthwatering. Hehehe. Chatted for some time then we were joined by Ying Ying, I guessed. Just for half an hour or so but it was great quality time. :)

Saturday, oh Saturday. Yea, Saturday. I went to Jusco Bukit Raja with my parents. Actually it was just supposed to be my mum and I but my dad came back when I was just out the door, so he joined us. With dad, everything'll be a tad more rush-ie because, y'know, business man habit kan? It's fine with me. I love spending time with both my parents together. :)

We went to find for a place to eat first when we reached there. Went up the escalator, went down with the lift and ultimately made our decision to eat at Sushi King. Me and my mum wanted to eat there some time ago but there were too many people and we were fed up with waiting so we left to eat at Ah Cheng Laksa. That was before, now it was scrawling with only one or two tables filled so we went in. My butt was still adjusting to sit when I reached out for a plate of jellyfish hahahah. Long time didn't eat sushi d ma. :3

We ordered a set that has this delicious udon with chicken. Wasabi was essential! :D

The rest of the set. Notice that the udon mee is the plate on the right hahaha.

We went to walk around for a while after eating then we went into the department store to buy my undergarments. Need more of those because of travelling. Afraid there wouldn't be enough for me, y'know. My mum was taking me to the bra section when we passed by an area that showcased travelling bags. My maid said she wanted to buy one so we stopped to search for a cheap and sturdy luggage. My parents chose this, chose that, chose this, chose that, until finally, they picked the one that chose initially. /facepalm/ Oh well, as long as they're satisfied with their choice, it's fine. My dad went to the key-and-lock aisle while me and my mum eventually made our way to the lingerie region. I tried on a few and finally settled on around 6 bras and a few panties. Pay time! Buy buy buy, scan scan scan, pack pack pack, $$$, done! Home!

Moving on: Sunday! I went to Setia City Mall with my parents again to buy some stuff, or just random walking I guess hahaha. We ate at a restaurant named 北马风味 near Aunty Amy's shop in Setia Prima, I guessed. It's tasty!!!! We finished everything! The fried rice, the pork, the petai-prawn, the vegetable and my white rice hahaha. I didn't eat breakfast ma. But seriously, the stuff tastes good. (Y)

After eating only we went to Setia City Mall. DAISO was first on our list because I wanted to buy the earmuffs my mum told me about.

There was white, brown and other colours but only the white one caught my eye. We bought it,and left. Cute right? RM5 only ma, so buy lo. ^_^

My father broke his spectacles so he had to go and choose a new one. Luckily, the glasses didn't shatter. We had to go back to the optician shop after an hour or less for them to fix the glasses into the new frame, so we walked around the mall. I bought Gong Cha, went to Esprit to buy something but putting it back afterwards, see some decorations and other stuff. 

Nice nice?! Hehehe. By editing a bit here and there, voila~

Hahahaha. The snow effect was good right? Power of applications!

Tall, christmas tree! Not the largest one there though. :3

What's a christmas tree, without the ornaments?

Decoration in the optician shop!

Decoration in the optician shop, 2!

Decoration in the optician shop, 3!

We left the building and on our way home, my mum said the cloud formation was beautiful, so I decided to snap a picture of it. Gorgeous, isn't it? :)

That's all for Sunday! I still have a little bit about Monday and tons about Tuesday to write actually but I promised Ian that I'd sleep before 3.30am. A promise is a promise, and I would never wreck our promise.

It's 0323 hours now, so I guess it's au revoir for now.

Goodnight and sweet dreams, guys. :)

*You're so sweet, I'm getting cavities. (;

Test Results and Events! :D

Heheh, since I've grown lazy of thinking post titles, I'll just put "Random Post #" as the title if it's not a specific post. :3 Easier ma, kan? Okay okay, sambung~
*I actually put the post title as "Random Post #1" but changed it.

The SAPS website is up and the results are out! I didn't know actually, but I think I do. Eh, what am I thinking? Aiya don't know la. So, CBS and Ian was trying to check their results at the saps website last Wednesday but theirs weren't out yet. Then they asked me what about mine so I told em' I haven't checked yet. They opened the log in page and I typed out my IC number. Guess what? My results were out and I wasn't the one that see them. It was CBS. /facepalm/ IKR. Apa la this fella. Then until I come back home, I still haven't check it. I only checked a few days ago. Hahahha, guess I wasn't really hyped up about it. :3

I checked it using the computer and well, here it is:

My Chemistry is really, really shit. Well, at least I didn't fail. If my memory haven't aged away, I think 16 people in my class failed the subject. Ms. Linda was outraged by the fact that this was the first time in her I-forgot-how-many years of teaching, or so she said. I wasn't sure whether she threw a fit just to make us feel terrified and stressed out about SPM or we were really the worst batch of Science 1 Form 4 in history. Hahah, can we call that an honour in some way? :/

Sorry la, every batch is different and unique in its own way. You can't just compare us with the students from the past. Remember, the syllabus may alter, the way the teacher teaches may be different, and most definitely, the way each student thinks is unalike. Just like our parents, always bringing up how we should appreciate what we have now because they don't even have technology in the olden days. Hey, I mean c'mon. You can't expect us to still be using horse-driven chariots, right? Even if cars are still not a necessity, we do have public transports, do you know? You said you want me to go out and do some sports like you used to last time in contradiction, you ask me to stay at home and don't go out because it's dangerous. Damn, what do you want?

I'm not trying to arouse your anger but shouldn't you, as parents, try to improve your mentality to follow the change of time.by being more open-minded and accept changes? Standing up for your own point of view is encouraged but your point of view may not be valid in this contemporary world. I mean, you can't expect us to live without handphones just because you don't have one when you were my age. I can't complain about this because you gave me one, but I meant other things. What about studying? What about freedom of speech? I can't say anything about that since we're living in a country with no freedom of media. I understand that tied-up feeling of being unable to say the things that are meant to be said. I guess all of us have our own difficulty, which leads us to a famous line that most would advice to a person facing hardship:

"There are other people facing worse craps than you."

Hey you! If you're saying that, it isn't gonna make what he's facing, vanish. You get me? People might beset on harder situations but that's what they're facing, not your friend right now. It might just seem like a little speckle of dust to you but it might be a humongous cement wall that's blocking them to move on. Do you see it now? If you can help them, then please do. If you can't, then just lend them your ears and listen to their problem. At least that would make their suppressed feelings not as burdening as before. Instead of telling them that there are worse happenings outside and giving them negative energy, why not just shut your pie hole and walk away. Well, opinions are opinions. Everyone has their own. Not forcing mine down your throat so don't force yours on me too. Moving on~

Last Friday I went to an event at Klang's Hokkien Association organised by Klang High School's Chinese Society. All the other Chinese Society from other schools in Klang were also in on it of course. :3 I did speak a little about this event in my last post right? Sin Yee says it was semi-formal so I wore my denim dress go lo. Mana tau! I macam the only fella wearing an overall besides the teachers and the MC. Sia sui la walao. Sigh, nehmind ah. At least I got to eat stuff. :3

I sat in the same table with Kwang Hua students. They were acting out a drama up on stage for the first hour or such so I was left sitting alone at the table. :( The only person I know from the group was Wee Yao from Physics class. He tried to pour tea in my cup but ended up spilling it on my hand instead. It was not intensely hot but still well above average warm, I guess you could say. He apologised profusely but I shove it aside la. It was nothing, really. :) The other guy sitting beside Wee Yao offered me fish but I waved it away with a smile and shaking my head to reject his offer. I was feeling alienated there, but I tried to stay oblivious and not show any sign of nervousness. CBS, Lian Qi, Kam Teng and Shin Wee was sent to sit at another table and eventually they went to Starbucks hahaha. I later went to Starbucks too with Ian and Jia Wei followed along after. :)

Ian actually told me it starts at freaking 6.30pm so I wore a skirt to tuition and planned to go to the place straight after Maths class but luckily Sin Yee confirmed with me that the event starts at 7.30pm or I would've gong gong go at 6.30pm. So, I went back and bath before I go to the event at 7 o'clock plus. :)

Okay, for the pictures:

It clearly states 7pm but the event really started only around 8pm. /facepalm/

Funny moment la 'cause I don't know where's the freaking camera. /facepalme/ Well, Ian, me and Jia Wei just before the show. They curi tulang! :3

I know I look damn fat in this but excuse me la. :(

Shared a venti Toffee Nut Frappucino with Ian at Centro Starbucks. :)

Mind the big nose please. T_T Received two flowers from Ian and Jia Wei hahah. Got 2 teddy bears dalam lagi. :D The naked one is from Jia Wei. :3

Me and Ian at the entrance. :)

I went shopping 2 days ago with my mum at Setia City Mall. It was by far the most productive shopping we did there. Setia City Mall is a small shopping mall but bolehlah beli until RM500++. /facepalm/ I don't know what came over my mum that she spent so much that day. Well, more stuffs for me! :D

I love this clothing matchup! Top, pants and earrings from H&M. Shoes from Vincci and shades from Vincci Accessories. :)

Both the jackets and the 3 earrings are from H&M while the bag is from Charles & Keith. The jacket got buy 1 free 1 ma heheh so both of it costs only RM60. Not saying they aren't expensive but dayummm, SALE LA! XD The bag is my first genuine lady-big bag. HAHAHAHAH. I've always only own small bags. I need more space! :3

"She was a skater chic

She said see ya later, dick

He wasn't good enough for her."

I thought I wore like a skater chic to the mall hahah. Converse and a beanie. Nice nice? :D I'm guessing I inflicted micro-trauma on my left biceps because the shopping bags were too heavy. Ouch! :(

Okay, shopping stuffs aside, I actually had a dinner with Ian, Charlene and Chong Chong that night. I don't know how to buka my mulut to ask lo actually because my father kept suan me yester-nite when he fetch me to the Klang's Hokkien Association, “明天又有什么？后天又有什么？做大生意是吗？“ I pun diam diam. 

Okay, going back to Saturday, while finding for parking, my mum suddenly asked me, “今天没有节目meh?" and I was like, "Actually my friends asked me to have dinner with them later at 88 Steamboat there." You know la, I just went there the Sunday before to Yong Tuck's birthday-eating event there so of course my mum asked, "Again?". I said this was another group of friends. I thought she would just ignore me but I heard her say it to my dad on the phone while we were at Vincci shopping. Heheh. Thanks mummy. :D

So, I went to dinner with them lo. Ian was on the way there at around 6.45pm so he asked me to go there too because he didn't want to be alone so, as a good friend I am, I went there at around 6.50pm with friggin' wet hair. :3 Mana tau, Charlene actually already reached but we didn't know. When she came to 88 Steamboat only she told us that she had actually arrived at 6.45pm. :3 You know what? I forgot to bring my phone to both the shopping mall and to 88 Steamboat. Apala kan. /facepalm/ I guess it was fate hahaha. Well, photos photos:

Group photo! We planned that everyone wear the pink Run for Peace 2013 shirt heheh. :D Nice right nice right? That Ian kiam pa, wore the orange one instead. Luckily he brought the pink one to change. Or else, not nice edi. :3

Then we went Chatime, again hahaha. :D Don't have a group photo, sadly. :/

Well, on Sunday, I went to watch Thor II: The Dark World with Ian. Lian Qi watched with Heidi and it was a last minute decision so we went ourselves lo. The show is awesome. I recommend you guys to go if you haven't watch it. Stay back for 2 post-credits events kay. :D

Some photography kay:

One of the flower that they gave me. I've put both of them and the teddies in a cup of water with Beckham's face on it hahahha:

They're in my room now and I just sniffed it. XD

You know this app called 魔漫相机？You capture your face with the camera and it comic-fy your face into an image. Too bad it's only found in iOS App Store so I took my father's iPad to use the app and ta-da! :

Nice right? I finally made one pretty good one after several attempts hahaha. Michelle Chay said that the picture looks like Mulan hahah. Got meh? :3 A little gua.

Back to the present time, I was si beh hungry just now so I went down to search for Indo Mee. Mana tau they're all in my mum's room and Maggi mee pun don't have so I terpaksa ate cereal instead lo. Not bad la Milo cereal. :) 

Great, cavities. /facepalm/

This Thursday I have a movie date with my schoolmates and ex-schoolmate, Alya at Bukit Raja 11.45am to watch Catching Fire! :D I hope I can la. Belum tanya mak lagi heheh. Then this Saturday maybe got reunion again with my primary schoolmates at SCM to watch a movie. Only planned just now so it's still fresh. Not sure yet. :3 

The shyt is tomorrow I have 4 tuitions omg. And, it starts in the morning at 9am with Biology, then 11.30am with Accounts and Physics at 2.15pm. At night pula Chemistry at 8.40pm wth. Packed, man. D: I missed Accounts last week because of Physics and Friday no class so I'm gonna be so blur tomorrow. Breakfast in the morning with Chong Chong might clear some things up, I hope. T_T 

Okay then, I guess that's about it. 

After a few hours, finally done with the post. 

Goodnight, peeps!

*If it wasn't for that tweet, I would've still be thinking otherwise.

Hangouts with le Buddies

Actually I should've posted about hanging out with my friends since last week but I just kept procrastinating it. Y'know, the usual shits. Well, anyways, let's get started. Shall we?

On the 2nd of November, I went to Momo Paradise with Lian Qi, Ian and CBS. I forgot why we went actually. I guess it's a normal teenage let's-go-out-I'm-bored decision. Hahah, yea. I guess it was. 

Well, shit. I've been searching for that group photo we took in Momo that day but damn, that photo isn't anywhere in this computer. I cleared up my phone but it's still nowhere to be found. So I downloaded the edited one from Lian Qi's Google Plus but it wasn't exactly the original no-filter image. Then Ian called me and I told him I wanted the photo so, here we are:

Sorry the quality's kinda shitty 'cause the photographer is either extremely bad (mind it, she's just a waiter) or the phone camera is just too crappy. Mmkay, at least there's a photo of us together. :)

Steamboat was awesome there. We didn't eat as much as last year when I went with Wan Nee, Kak Joleen and the other 2 High School senior scouts. I only ate, like, 1 bowl of soup or something less like that because I keh gao go and order Tom Yam soup instead of the normal, clear soup. I don't know 'bout Ian la but CBS and Lian Qi ate super small portions, man. I mean, I just started to eat and they're like saying they're full already. I guess maybe, I talked too much. Heheh. 

We did a little game of 'Truth or Dare' while we were there. Everyone kept saying 'Truth' so after that we made a rule that everyone must say 'Dare' after I-forgot-how-many-amount of 'Truth'. So Ian started with the 'Dare' and he was suppose to consume a raw egg. He did manage to put it into his mouth but later, he vomited it out into a cup again. Disgusting freak wtf. CBS' dare was drinking a mixture of chilli, clear soup, Tom Yam soup, some other shits and stuff. He was able to drink it down. *claps*claps* Lian Qi wasn't up for any dare and I was ready to eat a raw prawn but they wouldn't let me. They were saying I was gonna end up staying in a hospital hahah. Mmkay mmkay, I won't then. :3

In the end, I ate super less than usual because it was too spicy and they were all ranting on and on about being bloated and stuff.

After that we went to the Chatime stall that's a few streets behind Momo. Chelsea was playing against Newcastle that night in St. James' Park. There was a mamak there so I stood outside and watched the score for a while before I went to join the others in Chatime. I ordered Lychee QQ because they ran out of Pearl Milk Tea. :(

CBS only sent me this censored picture. Can la~

I look like a crazy witch here or something. No kidding.

Okay, moving on. Last Saturday, on the 9th of November, I went out with them 3 again plus Jazelyn, Min Li, Jia Wei and Brian to Neway. The last time I went karaoke was like 2 years ago. Damn, I love to sing but it was only, like, my 3rd or 4th time in a karaoke place. The room was quite spacious and was large enought to fit all 8 of us. There were only 4 microphones though, so we had to took our turns at singing our lungs out. We picked many songs. Majority of it was in English though. There was also many Mandarin songs picked too but CBS cancelled some off and picked English songs again for the sake of the others. Well, okay then. Next time, I would prefer to go in a smaller group. Or maybe even with only 1 or 2 friends. I think that would be really much better. Yes, really much better.

It was a group photo without Jia Wei inside. He went home early. Not sure why, though. The picture quality is sorta' messed up. Sorry guys~

Then the next day, on the 10th of November, I went to 88 because it was Yong Tuck's birthday and he invited a bunch of friends to celebrate together at 88: me, included. It was kinda awkward at first because Wan Nee, Edward and I reached there almost 1 hour late. Then Yong Tuck didn't expected so many people to attend actually, so we were split into 2 tables. I sat at the 6-person table with Wan Nee, Edward, Park Peing, Park Peing's 'wife' and 'Oil Tank'. I don't know their exact names, hence the inverted commas hahhaha. I think we had more fun compared to the other table that had around 10+ people at it. Most of them were just playing their phones and small talks among themselves but we were noisier and nobody touches their phones. I respect that very, very much. :)

I remember there's this part where the guys were catching live prawns. I'm not sure how, but one of them caught one and put it in a cup then covered the opened-top of the cup with a plate. They were afraid to put it in the soup because the prawn will definitely jump out. Hahahaha. Guess what? They tried to put the prawn into the soup by uncovering the top part of the cup slowly but the prawn really did flew out onto the table, right in front of me. The other few of us stood up instantaneously like wtf, man. Then no one dared to put it into the soup, and I don't know what came over me, but I took a step in front and just used my hand, grabbed that little sea creature and dumped it in the soup. The boys were like, "输了啦。连一个女生都比我们还要man,". Hahahahha. Really funny moment. XD

The rest of the night was kinda funny too. There was another part where the customers near us left their table and there was this weird fishball-thingy on the table. I ran tip-toed to the next table and took that fishball-thingy back to our table to snap a picture of it:

Then I put it back afterwards hahaha. It's "art"! :3

Then Wan Nee and I went back at around 10+ o'clock.

Ian, CBS and I were planning to watch Thor II this Saturday and then later go Momo to eat again but Lian Qi suddenly said that she'll be going out with her mum that night so it was cancelled. :\

Tomorrow night there'll be a Chinese Society of Klang schools event that starts at 6.30pm. I told Sin Yee I'd go but damn, lazy arh. Have to wear "pre-formal" clothes: Not formal but not casual. I'd be wearing a skirt but, I'm still deciding whether or not to attend or just skip it. Well, we'll know tomorrow hahaha. 

I guess that's all for the night. Lazy to blog more.

I don't think there's anything more la.

Kay, bye.

*无法自拔。

ol' Nougan Being ol' Nougan

I've changed my playlist into another language. Last time's was in English, then Mandarin & Cantonese so now I put Korean songs instead. A few, you guys might have heard from Korean dramas; I only find the Korean OSTs are good nowadays. The new Korean groups are just, not what they're used to be. I don't know about you guys but, last time, there used to be more talent. Especially in their singing skills. The last time I heard, there was mostly just auto tune and some mediocre dance steps.

I remember listening to Tohoshinki's songs and shrieking out the lyrics with my brothers. It's been quite some time... I guess I miss the times when my big brother was still here and we would just do some siblings stuff like sneaking downstairs and watch Tohoshinki's concert, or just fighting like crazy people hahaha. I know sometimes we might get mad at each other but, 血浓于水 is really true. We grew up together in a comfortable terrace house, we had toys which most of those had disappeared sometime back when we played with them, our parents earned sufficient money to keep us growing healthily and I appreciate all these little little moments. 

I admit my parents are just old fashioned and traditional-minded as another typical Chinese parents would be, but at least they do not abuse us. They loved us with all of their heart and only wished the best for us. I'm as typical as any other teenager; I will go through the my-parents-just-don't-seem-to-understand-me phase. All this while, they have to cope with my teen angst and so-called burden. They might complain at times, but with the load they're carrying each and every day, they deserve better than whiny kids that throw tantrums just to put extra weight on their shoulders.

I know that I have the ability to put that smile on their faces with excellent academic results, but I just can't overcome the teen in me that taught me procrastination. Laziness grows in me and it feeds off me. I let it be. I deteriorate day by day. I'm matured enough to comprehend that change is needed but am also childish enough to just stay oblivious. One day, that naivety will fade away. I know it. Everyone has to grow up someday. I just hope that when it happens, it will not be too late.

For now, I just wish to hold on to that last bit of innocence left in me. That pure core of mine before it was polluted by reality's darkness. Some might call in growing up, I guess that's it. Learning to adapt to the world's cruelness is one way to protect ourselves from unnecessary harm. But then, in another point of view, shouldn't we experience all of these that life offers? To live life to the fullest, shouldn't we, too face with life's bitterness? If we've never beset with such pain, we would not be able to taste happy situations like how it should've tasted: the sweetest taste.

People say that life is just like a rollercoaster: there will always be ups and downs. Even so, some humans are just too close-minded to grasp that life will only be perfect with all the bittersweet imperfections. That's what make living more meaningful. We wish to stand out and be useful beings to the society next time. I guess all our aim, as civilised humans, we want to leave our print on Earth before we die. We want to have impacted another person, changed them for the better and when we look back, we would be able to say, "I've had a long journey and i have helped others along the way. I am happy".

I may sometimes think, "Wow, I'm actually already sixteen years old. That's kinda' old," but look around you. Your parents have lived on this planet longer than us for so long. They've been through obstacles and fought through hardships. We have yet to experience all that life has to offer. We sulk at where we are now, at what we're undergoing through, but we don't know what the future has in store for us. It's okay for us to feel this way: remember, live life like how it's meant to be.

We may not be the next Albert Einstein or the next Neil Armstrong but as long as our conscience is clear, we can walk each day of our life feeling guilty-free. The impression we leave may be small, but that small effect can affect one's whole life. 

After all of this typing, will I still go back to being gullible and the typical teen with angst and bad temper? Well, of course. I'm still not done with being a sulky teenager. Hahah... I want to remember myself as an original, not a copy. Pain will change us, or so I heard. We will step into society like a wounded creature. We start to encounter various difficulties set for us in life when we hit our teens. Well, guess what? It's just the beginning, guys.

Some past, we will never forget. The memories we hold so dearly to us, no matter how miserable or how joyful we'd been through, let's not erase them, aite? At least when we look back at how bittersweet our route has been, it was never meaningless. It shaped us to what we are. The decisions we make now will become our future. But hey, it's our future. Never forget, this is OUR life.

Then again, I'm just your average girl-next-door teen that thinks about these stuff. Who am I to type out stupid, childish opinions, right? Hahah... I'm still, after all, a normal being that wishes to stand out once in a while. Wanting to be heard. I would rather a plentiful of sugar and spice than dull ol' black and white. 

As quotes go by, 

What is life, if full of care
We have no time to stand and stare.
-Leisure, by W. H. Davies

There's one line in Elvis Presley's song that I like very much:

Regrets; I've had a few,but then again too few to mention.             -My Way, Elvis Presley

后悔一定会有，但是就不要因为一点点的失败而放弃了自己。你知道吗？讽刺的事，我不知道自己办得到吗。我只不过是一个还想继续幼稚的小孩。什么人生大道理，全都只是一些人的句子。让自己也写下一些句子吧。

*When light is gone, find matches.