Understand Me

You know, sometimes one feels like being alone when the one that's accompanying you at the moment isn't the one that you want to accompany you. Because of this, one would rather be in its own solitary place than be surrounded by others. I've encountered this feeling countless times, but some people just won't understand. It's not that I don't want to spend time with you, but please include the situation as a factor. Nobody wants to be alone with no one to share their thoughts with, but with people that don't understand them, they would rather shy away instead. That is me.
Well, let's just leave it at that then. Don't want to make this post as glum as possible.

I was supposed to watch Insidious 2 on Tuesday, right? Guess what. They blew it off. Ugh. I skipped school because of that! Well, that was my excuse to skip school anyway but still... So I ended up watching just now alone. Sigh, umm. It was supposed to be with Mei Hua and Chi Yang. It was at 3.50pm in Jusco Bukit Raja. I ajak-ed them last night after Pio-loki tuition. Chi Yang said okay but Mei Hua needed to confirm with me the next morning. I prayed so hard that it would be good news but sadly, it didn't come out the way I hoped for of course. So, she couldn't come. I WhatsApp-ed Chi Yang after that to call it off. I wanted to go back to Plan A: Watching alone. Sigh, it's not what la but c'mon, I'd feel uncomfortable. I want to enjoy that movie, not sitting in the cinema thinking about how uneasy it is. I'd rather go alone. I didn't mean to hurt anyone okay...

Well, at least I got to watch the movie. :)

It made my hair stand at the end. Seriously recommended but for the faint-hearted, bring like a jacket or something to cover your eyes. That's what I did. I was alone and it felt extra scarier. God damn Insidious 2 you did not let me down at all. :) Same director with The Conjuring but I prefer this hahah. Still, MALAYSIAN DIRECTOR YOU ROCK SO BAD! :D

Mum drove me home around 6.20pm after I ate my McDonald's Vanilla Shake hehhe. One of my favs! I saw 2 of my schoolmates there waiting to be interviewed. They're planning to work there during the holidays. Hardworking nya~ :O

Came home, ate dinner, tried to shit but couldn't, then typed a bit of this blogpost, ended up abandoning both my computer and the phone in my room while I watched Kung Fu Hustle and later, Vamps. :) Gonna continue movie night for 1 week or something starting tomorrow because of Hallowscream on Fox Movie Premium at 10pm every night. Tonight spending 4 hours without any social disruption felt sorta nice. Less disturbance, like last time.

Though, I still had to finish this post, so here I am! Hahahha. :3 I wish I could blogged more, but I'm really kinda exhausted from 2 days of school hahahah. Therefore, I'm skipping it tomorrow! Yippee~ :D Planning to wake up at 10am and do some actual stuff instead of wasting a lot of precious time on just sleeping. I get this weird guilt trip whenever I sleep in and wished I'd had woken up earlier. Strange, I know hahha. I still have tons to blog about! So I might continue tomorrow. Hope I can really keep to my promise this time and update more often. 
Thanks, readers. :)

*What does it feels to be immortal...?

Post Exam Period

Hey guess what? My finals for Form 4 finished today! Well, I've actually had the feeling of freedom since last week. Can't really concentrate on cramming Physics for the 3 papers. I think I didn't do well in it. Too lazy to revise 'em back. :(

OKAY WHATEVER. It's already over and I can't do anything to alter the results. Well, something happened anyway. I felt so stupid hahahha. Last Thursday, Physics paper 2 was the last test of the day. I know I screwed it up but I hope I'll at least get a B- or something. Please... *googly eyes* Okay you know what happened? Time was up and my Physics teacher was the one collecting the papers. I was putting the paper above my head. Not sure what I was doing but I was feeling quite tired la. I don't know what the hell happened, bla-bla-bla, I saw the Physics formula paper on my table and was like, "Oh shit I forgot to give this back," and Wan Nee just said, "Aiya that thing nevermind la. The teacher won't care," so I just stuffed it inside my bag. I went back feeling like a heavy stone was lift off my almost-breaking back. Relieve swept over me like a wrecking ball hahahahha! 

*Sorry I typed wrecking ball because I'm listening to it right now. :3*
*Okay continues~*

I went back and I was feeling damn happy because Mr. Low's class was also off that day. Wooh so nice! Spent my whole afternoon like a pile of shit lying on the sofa, just watching tv. Then Ian called and talked about something I don't know what forgot already. I was smiling from ear to ear because my exams are almost over and nothing he said was gonna put me off that mood... UNTIL, I was talking to him while flipping my bag around and peering inside it. Suddenly I saw my Physics paper 2 still in my school bag. I swear I could feel cold sweat and shit. "Fuck" "What?" "I FORGOT TO PASS UP MY PHYSICS PAPER 2!!!" *swear words here and there, mostly the one starting with f-* I couldn't believe how stupid I was that I had actually forgotten to pass up that thick piece of crappy answers. Damn screwed, man. DAMN. FREAKING. SCREWED. I hung up and texted my mum to tell her what happened. I called her later to tell her again and I could hear the disappointment in her tone. Sigh... I'm so sorry. I didn't do anything with it but just stuffed that paper back in and hoped for the best. The next morning I of course went to search frantically for my Physics teacher to explain whatever that's happened la but she took my paper without me even trying hard hahhaha. Lady Luck, thank you. :)

Sejarah paper 3 was easy as hell so nothing much to say about that day. Then came back, bath la eat la prepare stuffs to go tuition lo. Nothing much. I'm starting to take back Mr. Brian's English lessons already. People heard me and was like, "你英语很好了还要补什么习？浪费钱吧了哦。" but then I'd explain to them I'm going for English tuition to improve my vocabulary and general knowledge ma. There's no such thing as wasting money when it comes to studies. You're gonna be a student for life. No matter the age, learning will always be a part of you. 

So, continuing back, we were studying the introduction of our Form 5 novel, "Step By Wicked Step". I'm not gonna elaborate much on that cause I'm still not that sure of the overall story but a child in the story named Colin, has touched me with his story. I'm serious. There were tears in my eyes and my heart felt so heavy. I really hope to get my hands on the book as soon as possible! >:)

After English got 30 minutes break before Maths class, so the students simply do random stuff lo. Including me hahaha. Listening to some songs while surfing my social sites. I didn't how much time has passed actually but I took off my earphones and saw the guys rushing in saying the class is canceled. WHUT. I kept repeating my question whether if it's real or just a faux but the counter girl said it herself that Ms. Tay is suffering a high fever so the class was forced to canceled. The guys semua pack their bags and go GK Mart, including me. .__. I got mamak later 6.30pm at Kopitiam Story ma so not going home. Sejarah's at 9pm too. I sat alone in GK Mart for around 2 hours, doing Add Maths and surfing the net with the free wifi they offer there. Not sure whether I was bored or just really, really lonely.

I ordered this Strawberry Snow Ice:

Hahaah. Looks like period blood on top lols but the taste is actually not bad. 

Then I was on the way to Kopitiam Story when Ian called me. Heh, first time not I paling awal ya. :3 Reached there and talked to Mr. Brian before I ate Hokkien Mee with fried Hay Khor~ Chat chat with Jaypal, Ivan, Charlene and Ian before they abandoned me. T_T I pulled myself back to Delta and sat in the cold waiting room alone for 1 hour + like some fella with no friends.

At least the next day was Saturday and there's NO INTENSIVE CLASS OR EXTRA CLASS OR REPLACEMENT CLASS OR WHATEVER-SHIT-I-DON'T-CARE-AT-ALL CLASS. NONE! Hehehhehe, of course I went shopping with my mum la. :3 Mana zai on the way to 1 Utama, my brother's girlfriend's mum called my mum to offer me a two-day part-time job. My mum straight away accepted the offer only asked for the details and stuff... .__. So we did reach 1 Utama and shop, but shop for working clothes. /facepalm Well, before that, we had brunch at Delicious. My first try! :)

The chocolate brownie expresso thing I ordered as my beverage.

There's still stories to come! But I'm too tired to continue. Tomorrow skip school go watch Insidious 2 with my guy friends! Girl friends semua tak mahu. Haish. Suan liao. All guys then all guys la. 我知道不好看，但是又能怎样呢？是是非非一定会有，我阻止不了。我知道自己是清白就够了。反正懂我的朋友不多，我也不再介意了。So, I'll try to update more often since the examination period is over! \o/ Maybe, tomorrow I will hahaha. GOODNIGHT! :)

*寂寞难耐