Test Results and Events! :D

Heheh, since I've grown lazy of thinking post titles, I'll just put "Random Post #" as the title if it's not a specific post. :3 Easier ma, kan? Okay okay, sambung~
*I actually put the post title as "Random Post #1" but changed it.

The SAPS website is up and the results are out! I didn't know actually, but I think I do. Eh, what am I thinking? Aiya don't know la. So, CBS and Ian was trying to check their results at the saps website last Wednesday but theirs weren't out yet. Then they asked me what about mine so I told em' I haven't checked yet. They opened the log in page and I typed out my IC number. Guess what? My results were out and I wasn't the one that see them. It was CBS. /facepalm/ IKR. Apa la this fella. Then until I come back home, I still haven't check it. I only checked a few days ago. Hahahha, guess I wasn't really hyped up about it. :3

I checked it using the computer and well, here it is:

My Chemistry is really, really shit. Well, at least I didn't fail. If my memory haven't aged away, I think 16 people in my class failed the subject. Ms. Linda was outraged by the fact that this was the first time in her I-forgot-how-many years of teaching, or so she said. I wasn't sure whether she threw a fit just to make us feel terrified and stressed out about SPM or we were really the worst batch of Science 1 Form 4 in history. Hahah, can we call that an honour in some way? :/

Sorry la, every batch is different and unique in its own way. You can't just compare us with the students from the past. Remember, the syllabus may alter, the way the teacher teaches may be different, and most definitely, the way each student thinks is unalike. Just like our parents, always bringing up how we should appreciate what we have now because they don't even have technology in the olden days. Hey, I mean c'mon. You can't expect us to still be using horse-driven chariots, right? Even if cars are still not a necessity, we do have public transports, do you know? You said you want me to go out and do some sports like you used to last time in contradiction, you ask me to stay at home and don't go out because it's dangerous. Damn, what do you want?

I'm not trying to arouse your anger but shouldn't you, as parents, try to improve your mentality to follow the change of time.by being more open-minded and accept changes? Standing up for your own point of view is encouraged but your point of view may not be valid in this contemporary world. I mean, you can't expect us to live without handphones just because you don't have one when you were my age. I can't complain about this because you gave me one, but I meant other things. What about studying? What about freedom of speech? I can't say anything about that since we're living in a country with no freedom of media. I understand that tied-up feeling of being unable to say the things that are meant to be said. I guess all of us have our own difficulty, which leads us to a famous line that most would advice to a person facing hardship:

"There are other people facing worse craps than you."

Hey you! If you're saying that, it isn't gonna make what he's facing, vanish. You get me? People might beset on harder situations but that's what they're facing, not your friend right now. It might just seem like a little speckle of dust to you but it might be a humongous cement wall that's blocking them to move on. Do you see it now? If you can help them, then please do. If you can't, then just lend them your ears and listen to their problem. At least that would make their suppressed feelings not as burdening as before. Instead of telling them that there are worse happenings outside and giving them negative energy, why not just shut your pie hole and walk away. Well, opinions are opinions. Everyone has their own. Not forcing mine down your throat so don't force yours on me too. Moving on~

Last Friday I went to an event at Klang's Hokkien Association organised by Klang High School's Chinese Society. All the other Chinese Society from other schools in Klang were also in on it of course. :3 I did speak a little about this event in my last post right? Sin Yee says it was semi-formal so I wore my denim dress go lo. Mana tau! I macam the only fella wearing an overall besides the teachers and the MC. Sia sui la walao. Sigh, nehmind ah. At least I got to eat stuff. :3

I sat in the same table with Kwang Hua students. They were acting out a drama up on stage for the first hour or such so I was left sitting alone at the table. :( The only person I know from the group was Wee Yao from Physics class. He tried to pour tea in my cup but ended up spilling it on my hand instead. It was not intensely hot but still well above average warm, I guess you could say. He apologised profusely but I shove it aside la. It was nothing, really. :) The other guy sitting beside Wee Yao offered me fish but I waved it away with a smile and shaking my head to reject his offer. I was feeling alienated there, but I tried to stay oblivious and not show any sign of nervousness. CBS, Lian Qi, Kam Teng and Shin Wee was sent to sit at another table and eventually they went to Starbucks hahaha. I later went to Starbucks too with Ian and Jia Wei followed along after. :)

Ian actually told me it starts at freaking 6.30pm so I wore a skirt to tuition and planned to go to the place straight after Maths class but luckily Sin Yee confirmed with me that the event starts at 7.30pm or I would've gong gong go at 6.30pm. So, I went back and bath before I go to the event at 7 o'clock plus. :)

Okay, for the pictures:

It clearly states 7pm but the event really started only around 8pm. /facepalm/

Funny moment la 'cause I don't know where's the freaking camera. /facepalme/ Well, Ian, me and Jia Wei just before the show. They curi tulang! :3

I know I look damn fat in this but excuse me la. :(

Shared a venti Toffee Nut Frappucino with Ian at Centro Starbucks. :)

Mind the big nose please. T_T Received two flowers from Ian and Jia Wei hahah. Got 2 teddy bears dalam lagi. :D The naked one is from Jia Wei. :3

Me and Ian at the entrance. :)

I went shopping 2 days ago with my mum at Setia City Mall. It was by far the most productive shopping we did there. Setia City Mall is a small shopping mall but bolehlah beli until RM500++. /facepalm/ I don't know what came over my mum that she spent so much that day. Well, more stuffs for me! :D

I love this clothing matchup! Top, pants and earrings from H&M. Shoes from Vincci and shades from Vincci Accessories. :)

Both the jackets and the 3 earrings are from H&M while the bag is from Charles & Keith. The jacket got buy 1 free 1 ma heheh so both of it costs only RM60. Not saying they aren't expensive but dayummm, SALE LA! XD The bag is my first genuine lady-big bag. HAHAHAHAH. I've always only own small bags. I need more space! :3

"She was a skater chic

She said see ya later, dick

He wasn't good enough for her."

I thought I wore like a skater chic to the mall hahah. Converse and a beanie. Nice nice? :D I'm guessing I inflicted micro-trauma on my left biceps because the shopping bags were too heavy. Ouch! :(

Okay, shopping stuffs aside, I actually had a dinner with Ian, Charlene and Chong Chong that night. I don't know how to buka my mulut to ask lo actually because my father kept suan me yester-nite when he fetch me to the Klang's Hokkien Association, “明天又有什么？后天又有什么？做大生意是吗？“ I pun diam diam. 

Okay, going back to Saturday, while finding for parking, my mum suddenly asked me, “今天没有节目meh?" and I was like, "Actually my friends asked me to have dinner with them later at 88 Steamboat there." You know la, I just went there the Sunday before to Yong Tuck's birthday-eating event there so of course my mum asked, "Again?". I said this was another group of friends. I thought she would just ignore me but I heard her say it to my dad on the phone while we were at Vincci shopping. Heheh. Thanks mummy. :D

So, I went to dinner with them lo. Ian was on the way there at around 6.45pm so he asked me to go there too because he didn't want to be alone so, as a good friend I am, I went there at around 6.50pm with friggin' wet hair. :3 Mana tau, Charlene actually already reached but we didn't know. When she came to 88 Steamboat only she told us that she had actually arrived at 6.45pm. :3 You know what? I forgot to bring my phone to both the shopping mall and to 88 Steamboat. Apala kan. /facepalm/ I guess it was fate hahaha. Well, photos photos:

Group photo! We planned that everyone wear the pink Run for Peace 2013 shirt heheh. :D Nice right nice right? That Ian kiam pa, wore the orange one instead. Luckily he brought the pink one to change. Or else, not nice edi. :3

Then we went Chatime, again hahaha. :D Don't have a group photo, sadly. :/

Well, on Sunday, I went to watch Thor II: The Dark World with Ian. Lian Qi watched with Heidi and it was a last minute decision so we went ourselves lo. The show is awesome. I recommend you guys to go if you haven't watch it. Stay back for 2 post-credits events kay. :D

Some photography kay:

One of the flower that they gave me. I've put both of them and the teddies in a cup of water with Beckham's face on it hahahha:

They're in my room now and I just sniffed it. XD

You know this app called 魔漫相机？You capture your face with the camera and it comic-fy your face into an image. Too bad it's only found in iOS App Store so I took my father's iPad to use the app and ta-da! :

Nice right? I finally made one pretty good one after several attempts hahaha. Michelle Chay said that the picture looks like Mulan hahah. Got meh? :3 A little gua.

Back to the present time, I was si beh hungry just now so I went down to search for Indo Mee. Mana tau they're all in my mum's room and Maggi mee pun don't have so I terpaksa ate cereal instead lo. Not bad la Milo cereal. :) 

Great, cavities. /facepalm/

This Thursday I have a movie date with my schoolmates and ex-schoolmate, Alya at Bukit Raja 11.45am to watch Catching Fire! :D I hope I can la. Belum tanya mak lagi heheh. Then this Saturday maybe got reunion again with my primary schoolmates at SCM to watch a movie. Only planned just now so it's still fresh. Not sure yet. :3 

The shyt is tomorrow I have 4 tuitions omg. And, it starts in the morning at 9am with Biology, then 11.30am with Accounts and Physics at 2.15pm. At night pula Chemistry at 8.40pm wth. Packed, man. D: I missed Accounts last week because of Physics and Friday no class so I'm gonna be so blur tomorrow. Breakfast in the morning with Chong Chong might clear some things up, I hope. T_T 

Okay then, I guess that's about it. 

After a few hours, finally done with the post. 

Goodnight, peeps!

*If it wasn't for that tweet, I would've still be thinking otherwise.

Hangouts with le Buddies

Actually I should've posted about hanging out with my friends since last week but I just kept procrastinating it. Y'know, the usual shits. Well, anyways, let's get started. Shall we?

On the 2nd of November, I went to Momo Paradise with Lian Qi, Ian and CBS. I forgot why we went actually. I guess it's a normal teenage let's-go-out-I'm-bored decision. Hahah, yea. I guess it was. 

Well, shit. I've been searching for that group photo we took in Momo that day but damn, that photo isn't anywhere in this computer. I cleared up my phone but it's still nowhere to be found. So I downloaded the edited one from Lian Qi's Google Plus but it wasn't exactly the original no-filter image. Then Ian called me and I told him I wanted the photo so, here we are:

Sorry the quality's kinda shitty 'cause the photographer is either extremely bad (mind it, she's just a waiter) or the phone camera is just too crappy. Mmkay, at least there's a photo of us together. :)

Steamboat was awesome there. We didn't eat as much as last year when I went with Wan Nee, Kak Joleen and the other 2 High School senior scouts. I only ate, like, 1 bowl of soup or something less like that because I keh gao go and order Tom Yam soup instead of the normal, clear soup. I don't know 'bout Ian la but CBS and Lian Qi ate super small portions, man. I mean, I just started to eat and they're like saying they're full already. I guess maybe, I talked too much. Heheh. 

We did a little game of 'Truth or Dare' while we were there. Everyone kept saying 'Truth' so after that we made a rule that everyone must say 'Dare' after I-forgot-how-many-amount of 'Truth'. So Ian started with the 'Dare' and he was suppose to consume a raw egg. He did manage to put it into his mouth but later, he vomited it out into a cup again. Disgusting freak wtf. CBS' dare was drinking a mixture of chilli, clear soup, Tom Yam soup, some other shits and stuff. He was able to drink it down. *claps*claps* Lian Qi wasn't up for any dare and I was ready to eat a raw prawn but they wouldn't let me. They were saying I was gonna end up staying in a hospital hahah. Mmkay mmkay, I won't then. :3

In the end, I ate super less than usual because it was too spicy and they were all ranting on and on about being bloated and stuff.

After that we went to the Chatime stall that's a few streets behind Momo. Chelsea was playing against Newcastle that night in St. James' Park. There was a mamak there so I stood outside and watched the score for a while before I went to join the others in Chatime. I ordered Lychee QQ because they ran out of Pearl Milk Tea. :(

CBS only sent me this censored picture. Can la~

I look like a crazy witch here or something. No kidding.

Okay, moving on. Last Saturday, on the 9th of November, I went out with them 3 again plus Jazelyn, Min Li, Jia Wei and Brian to Neway. The last time I went karaoke was like 2 years ago. Damn, I love to sing but it was only, like, my 3rd or 4th time in a karaoke place. The room was quite spacious and was large enought to fit all 8 of us. There were only 4 microphones though, so we had to took our turns at singing our lungs out. We picked many songs. Majority of it was in English though. There was also many Mandarin songs picked too but CBS cancelled some off and picked English songs again for the sake of the others. Well, okay then. Next time, I would prefer to go in a smaller group. Or maybe even with only 1 or 2 friends. I think that would be really much better. Yes, really much better.

It was a group photo without Jia Wei inside. He went home early. Not sure why, though. The picture quality is sorta' messed up. Sorry guys~

Then the next day, on the 10th of November, I went to 88 because it was Yong Tuck's birthday and he invited a bunch of friends to celebrate together at 88: me, included. It was kinda awkward at first because Wan Nee, Edward and I reached there almost 1 hour late. Then Yong Tuck didn't expected so many people to attend actually, so we were split into 2 tables. I sat at the 6-person table with Wan Nee, Edward, Park Peing, Park Peing's 'wife' and 'Oil Tank'. I don't know their exact names, hence the inverted commas hahhaha. I think we had more fun compared to the other table that had around 10+ people at it. Most of them were just playing their phones and small talks among themselves but we were noisier and nobody touches their phones. I respect that very, very much. :)

I remember there's this part where the guys were catching live prawns. I'm not sure how, but one of them caught one and put it in a cup then covered the opened-top of the cup with a plate. They were afraid to put it in the soup because the prawn will definitely jump out. Hahahaha. Guess what? They tried to put the prawn into the soup by uncovering the top part of the cup slowly but the prawn really did flew out onto the table, right in front of me. The other few of us stood up instantaneously like wtf, man. Then no one dared to put it into the soup, and I don't know what came over me, but I took a step in front and just used my hand, grabbed that little sea creature and dumped it in the soup. The boys were like, "输了啦。连一个女生都比我们还要man,". Hahahahha. Really funny moment. XD

The rest of the night was kinda funny too. There was another part where the customers near us left their table and there was this weird fishball-thingy on the table. I ran tip-toed to the next table and took that fishball-thingy back to our table to snap a picture of it:

Then I put it back afterwards hahaha. It's "art"! :3

Then Wan Nee and I went back at around 10+ o'clock.

Ian, CBS and I were planning to watch Thor II this Saturday and then later go Momo to eat again but Lian Qi suddenly said that she'll be going out with her mum that night so it was cancelled. :\

Tomorrow night there'll be a Chinese Society of Klang schools event that starts at 6.30pm. I told Sin Yee I'd go but damn, lazy arh. Have to wear "pre-formal" clothes: Not formal but not casual. I'd be wearing a skirt but, I'm still deciding whether or not to attend or just skip it. Well, we'll know tomorrow hahaha. 

I guess that's all for the night. Lazy to blog more.

I don't think there's anything more la.

Kay, bye.

*无法自拔。

ol' Nougan Being ol' Nougan

I've changed my playlist into another language. Last time's was in English, then Mandarin & Cantonese so now I put Korean songs instead. A few, you guys might have heard from Korean dramas; I only find the Korean OSTs are good nowadays. The new Korean groups are just, not what they're used to be. I don't know about you guys but, last time, there used to be more talent. Especially in their singing skills. The last time I heard, there was mostly just auto tune and some mediocre dance steps.

I remember listening to Tohoshinki's songs and shrieking out the lyrics with my brothers. It's been quite some time... I guess I miss the times when my big brother was still here and we would just do some siblings stuff like sneaking downstairs and watch Tohoshinki's concert, or just fighting like crazy people hahaha. I know sometimes we might get mad at each other but, 血浓于水 is really true. We grew up together in a comfortable terrace house, we had toys which most of those had disappeared sometime back when we played with them, our parents earned sufficient money to keep us growing healthily and I appreciate all these little little moments. 

I admit my parents are just old fashioned and traditional-minded as another typical Chinese parents would be, but at least they do not abuse us. They loved us with all of their heart and only wished the best for us. I'm as typical as any other teenager; I will go through the my-parents-just-don't-seem-to-understand-me phase. All this while, they have to cope with my teen angst and so-called burden. They might complain at times, but with the load they're carrying each and every day, they deserve better than whiny kids that throw tantrums just to put extra weight on their shoulders.

I know that I have the ability to put that smile on their faces with excellent academic results, but I just can't overcome the teen in me that taught me procrastination. Laziness grows in me and it feeds off me. I let it be. I deteriorate day by day. I'm matured enough to comprehend that change is needed but am also childish enough to just stay oblivious. One day, that naivety will fade away. I know it. Everyone has to grow up someday. I just hope that when it happens, it will not be too late.

For now, I just wish to hold on to that last bit of innocence left in me. That pure core of mine before it was polluted by reality's darkness. Some might call in growing up, I guess that's it. Learning to adapt to the world's cruelness is one way to protect ourselves from unnecessary harm. But then, in another point of view, shouldn't we experience all of these that life offers? To live life to the fullest, shouldn't we, too face with life's bitterness? If we've never beset with such pain, we would not be able to taste happy situations like how it should've tasted: the sweetest taste.

People say that life is just like a rollercoaster: there will always be ups and downs. Even so, some humans are just too close-minded to grasp that life will only be perfect with all the bittersweet imperfections. That's what make living more meaningful. We wish to stand out and be useful beings to the society next time. I guess all our aim, as civilised humans, we want to leave our print on Earth before we die. We want to have impacted another person, changed them for the better and when we look back, we would be able to say, "I've had a long journey and i have helped others along the way. I am happy".

I may sometimes think, "Wow, I'm actually already sixteen years old. That's kinda' old," but look around you. Your parents have lived on this planet longer than us for so long. They've been through obstacles and fought through hardships. We have yet to experience all that life has to offer. We sulk at where we are now, at what we're undergoing through, but we don't know what the future has in store for us. It's okay for us to feel this way: remember, live life like how it's meant to be.

We may not be the next Albert Einstein or the next Neil Armstrong but as long as our conscience is clear, we can walk each day of our life feeling guilty-free. The impression we leave may be small, but that small effect can affect one's whole life. 

After all of this typing, will I still go back to being gullible and the typical teen with angst and bad temper? Well, of course. I'm still not done with being a sulky teenager. Hahah... I want to remember myself as an original, not a copy. Pain will change us, or so I heard. We will step into society like a wounded creature. We start to encounter various difficulties set for us in life when we hit our teens. Well, guess what? It's just the beginning, guys.

Some past, we will never forget. The memories we hold so dearly to us, no matter how miserable or how joyful we'd been through, let's not erase them, aite? At least when we look back at how bittersweet our route has been, it was never meaningless. It shaped us to what we are. The decisions we make now will become our future. But hey, it's our future. Never forget, this is OUR life.

Then again, I'm just your average girl-next-door teen that thinks about these stuff. Who am I to type out stupid, childish opinions, right? Hahah... I'm still, after all, a normal being that wishes to stand out once in a while. Wanting to be heard. I would rather a plentiful of sugar and spice than dull ol' black and white. 

As quotes go by, 

What is life, if full of care
We have no time to stand and stare.
-Leisure, by W. H. Davies

There's one line in Elvis Presley's song that I like very much:

Regrets; I've had a few,but then again too few to mention.             -My Way, Elvis Presley

后悔一定会有，但是就不要因为一点点的失败而放弃了自己。你知道吗？讽刺的事，我不知道自己办得到吗。我只不过是一个还想继续幼稚的小孩。什么人生大道理，全都只是一些人的句子。让自己也写下一些句子吧。

*When light is gone, find matches. 

Mum's Birthday!

HEY HEY! :D
My father bought a new DSLR camera in Langkawi!
So, of course, that camera belongs to me liao~

The pictures taken are nicer in comparison with my phone.
*DUH*
I saw Drogba on the tv and took a picture of him.
Edited a bit a bit then became:

Heheh, proud of it.
ME LIKEY~

Okay okay back to topic.
6th November is my mum's birthday! :D
So, I "sacrificed" my Pio-loki tuition go dinner! :3
Typically, we ate at 6 to 10 Grill & Nasi Lemak. :3

My parents! :)

Me and my brother! :D

The ordered stuffs~ :3

This is my meal. :3

Salad shared among each other. :D

My dad's combo food. :O
So much wth. 

My brother's same with me except mine was thigh and his was breast.
He said he want eat clean wor~
Lastly, he ate chicken and the vege but the fries he didn't touch at all.
Cakap mau bagi me eat.
I full like siao liao lo walao.

Birthday woman geh.
Red wine pork rib thingy~
Tastes good too. :)

It's my drink, apple juice!
I thought it was gonna be like, the sweet typical one.
Mana tau is freshly squeezed green apple juice.
Drank more and it tastes better. :)
I saw the green thing float up so unique so I took a closeup picture of it.
Isn't it pretty? :)
The camera macro made the effect cantik oh~

Photographer also need to have photo de ma. :3

Somewhat "candid".... NOT. :3
Still, heheh.

Hey~~ Sexay lady~

She's the prettiest when she smile. :)

Me: Wah daddy why you so yeng wan?
Dad: 才生到你这样美吗。
Hahahahah. :3

After that we came back.
We celebrated! :D
My dad bought a cake from RT Pastry just now.

It's Tiramisu heheh.
Isn't it pretty?
It's very delicious, too.
I like it very much. 

Happy birthday, mummy. 

结婚就是一生的决定。
I wish to be married to a husband that loves me very much.
I wish to have a happy family, too. :)

Missing my big brother here.
He'll be back next May!
3-month summer holiday wth.
So long... I wish I have too. :(
May is all 3 siblings' birthday.
My big bro: May 3rd
My 2nd bro: May 8th
Mine: May 16th
Hope we'll have a great one! :)

祝你永远青春美丽。

Okay, on the other hand I kakao-ed with Chong Chong, Duck Phang, Digimon and Wan Tan Mee just now.
They very beh de lo.
2am+ then off liao.
All so early sleep de.
Sien. :(

Today was supposed to replace my Bio class in HQ because we were going dinner ma.
Supposed to go after Vela's class in Eng Ann at 4pm.
Mana tau today's Sejarah class ended at 5.30pm instead.
So, I had to miss la. 
Bo bian. :3
I asked Lian Qi whether important a not.
She said a lot Form 3 de so just don't need replace la.
So I'm not gonna. :3
Chong Chong is gonna join Mr Low, Vela and Donald's class liao.
Book place for him la. :D

That's all for today. :)
Ian rushing me to finish this post. 3:
I really hope I will write more with pictures from my new camera!
After this gonna watch Dortmund vs Arsenal at 0345 hours.
Have to wake up my brother or he won't fetch me anymore.
*Facepalm*
Tomorrow got Mr. Low's class.
OMG I'm still not done with Exercise 3.
The last exercise!
Okay la, I'll do it tomorrow morning.
I hope. :3

Mmkay guys, goodnight.

*我也只不过是一个女人。

A Long Thought, A Long Night.

突然有一种感觉想写东西。

I know most of everyone, must've thought at least once, deeply about their life, their future, what is life all about. What is our purpose in life right at the moment? What do we serve to be? Where are we heading? Is there such a thing as afterlife? Or will there be reincarnation instead?

Let's move on to these usually-teens-will-ask questions: What will my friends think when I speak like that? Will he notice if I wore this instead?

I often encounter these situations:

Situation A
Friend: Walao that teacher gave karangan oh my god must hantar tomorrow. You done already?
Me: Aiyo don't need to do wan la. Who cares!
Friend: She very strict wan leh! Rotan how?!
Me: Eh c'mon! Just don't do together la! Scare what?
Friend: Okay la okay la. You say wan ah! Don't do ah!
*The next day*
Both of us passed up the karangan.

Situation B
Friend: Eh! Holidays want do what ah?
Me: Of course we're going to go out la wth!
Friend: Hahahaha... Go where?
Me: Watch a movie? Let's watch "..."! Like very nice leh!
Friend: Ya la ya la! So hot right "..."!!! When when?
Me: Holidays only say ah.
*The night before holiday*
Me: Eh tomorrow want go watch "..."?
Friend: Uhh... Don't want la. Not free.
Me: Why?
Friend: I going out with other people. Sorry ah.
Me: Okay then.
*After 2 days*
Friend: Eh, tomorrow we go watch "..." want ah?
Me: Don't want la. I cannot go.
Friend: Okay then.
*Holidays ended*

-Actually said I cannot go because of laziness.

Situation C
Me: Eh you think that fella hot ah?
Friend: Yer... C'mon la. So ugly!
Me: Umm... Ya lo. Just asking nia ma.
Friend: You like him is it? Actually, he not bad la.
Me: Eh of course no la! So not my taste la c'mon.
Friend: You say no then no lo.

-Actually had a crush on that guy for a very long time.

Situation D
Me: Stupid bitch! Jiak sai la!
Friend: Who? Who?
Me: Neh, that ugly bitch la. Brainless c****.
Friend: Ya la. I know I know.
Me: So lack of attention then go find a boyfriend la. Crapping here for what? Stupid.
Friend: Aiya, she memang like that wan la.
Me: See her also want to slap her. Idiot.
*The next time I see her*
Me: Hi. :)

Situation E
Me: Oh my god next week exam?!!!
Friend: Ya la. You think what?
Me: I thought lagi ada 2 weeks. Oh my god I haven't even touch my books.
Friend: I also haven't ah.
Me: Aiya tomorrow la.
*That night*
Revises for 5 minutes then throws book aside*
*The next day*
Friend: Read edi?
Me: Oh shit! Haven't! Tonight la tonight. Pasti!
*A night before exam*
Me: @#$%@!#@ I HAVEN'T READ WTF.

-Then spends every single night hoping to cram 1 whole year's syllabus.

Situation F
Me: How much you got?
Friend: 60 nia. You?
Me: Aiya low la.

-Actually scored an A.

Situation G
Friend: How much?
Me: 78! Diu nia seng. You?
Friend: I 50 nia okay. Go die la you.
Me: But I left 2 marks then A lo walao.
Friend: I 50 LO OKAY. DIAM CAN A NOT?
*Friend walk away*
Me: .... *turns to another friend* You got how much?

-Actually wants to show off. I apologise,

Some friends, I'm not sure whether are they truly my friends a not. I don't have a true friend that I share secrets with. I don't go out with my friends a lot. I wonder a lot whether do I even have friends or not. I wonder if they're lying to me when they say they can't hang out with me. I wonder if my friends treat me as their friend. I wonder if they find me annoying or obnoxious. I wonder if they actually hates me to the core. I wonder if they actually talk bad about me behind my back. I wonder if when they look at me, would it make their day worse? All I'm really asking is, am I your friend?

Don't lie to me.

I admit what I am: a hypocrite, a liar, a person that judges others, a gossip-er, insecure, a procrastinator, a lazy ass, a vain bitch, a self-opinionated person. I think I'm more matured than my peers, but am I really? I think I can take it easy in my studies, but can I really? I think a lot of guys like me, but is it really? I think I have to live the moment and just let what will happen to happen, but can I really do this? I think I will live prosperous in my future, but will I really? I think I can go to a really great university and enjoy life as what I imagine college life would be, but will I really? I think my parents have sufficient money to send me overseas and extend my uni-life, but do they really? I think I can easily get what I want, but can I really?

I'm as naive, as matured, as innocent, as polluted: I'm me.

I talk bad about you, then greets you like nothing happened.
I procrastinate my work, because I believe I'll do it after.
I spend of my time in my bedroom, on my phone.
I tweet a lot of quotes that I think would get retweeted or favourite-d.
I stalk a person's profile when I want to.
I would rather keep refreshing my timeline instead of doing something benefiting.
I think twice before I want to post something on Facebook, and ended up not posting.
I care what others think.
I buy clothes that look good in the fitting room, and now they're rotting somewhere in my closet.
I eat fattening food and comforts myself that that's nothing.
I look at myself in the mirror and thinks, "I'm not that fat."
I want to be photogenic, but I can't seem to be.
I want to love and be loved.
I want that hot guy to come and kiss me right now.
I think I have the courage to play "Spin the Bottle".

I am a typical teenage girl that thinks I'm not typical.

I reminisce my past.
I listen to sad songs.
I sing to them.
I look at pictures from before.
I think back those memories.
My heart aches nonphysically.
I think that's depression.
I wish to be comforted.
I wish to be loved.

I wish to have freedom.
I wish I can drive.
I wish I could go out.
I wish my parents would let me walk to tuition.
I wish my parents listened to me.
I wish my parents do not ignore me.
I wish my parents understand me.
I wish my parents give me a lot of money as allowance.
I wish my parents let me go wherever I want.
I wish my parents let me do whatever I want.
I wish my parents don't argue.
I wish my parents don't get angry with me.
I wish my parents were more open-minded.
I wish my parents were richer and would live forever.
I wish my parents would never leave me, but at the same time leave me.

I still have a lot to say.
My train of thoughts is streaming endlessly.
But this is all for tonight.

I wish a lot, I hope a lot. I complain a lot, I judge a lot.
I am who I am.
I'm sorry.
This is me.